Sick Again!!!

I'm telling you this is the worst winter ever for the Glass family. So now I got Michael's cold. I am so stuffed up I can not breathe... I mean it! Not one nostril has air flow. So last night I slept with my mouth open and woke a million times with a sore throat. If that was not enough we had very high winds last night. It sounded like my house was going to be blown away. So I was up and down with that. Our electric went out at some point in the night cause the night light was out and the alarm clock. Loads of fun last night~

So this morning I got up starting working. I had Michael drop Jacobs at Mom's house so that he is not in our sickly house. I ended up working till 12:30 and had got a clm for like 260,000.00 dollars and that is something you do not want to mess up..... So I sat back with my stuffiness and my throbbing head ache and said I can not do this... I can not look at the screen anymore its killing my eyes. And I was starting to feel worse... so I called it a day. I called my boss left voice mail & emailed her. Of course I will be charged 1/2 occurrence but I just could not do it. Which upsets me.... I work from home ...so I always stick to the policy unless I am deathly ill..throwing up, on the run if you know what I mean, or can not pry my self out of bed I need to work.

Well Jacob is staying at Me ma's & Pappys..... as he calls them.

Well I am going back to bed

Pictures

Heres some updated pic's.

Pappy & Jacob painting

Ash & Sam gingerbread house

Jacob & Simon

Chief Jacob

what Thomas Train do I buy next?

Its been a long time. I have not wrote in my blog or read my favorite blogs. And I have missed it very much. We have had some very crazy months. I am sure you are all aware we have moved into our new home. And we love it! The house really feels like home not that our old house did not. Just its where we have wanted to live for long time.

Since we have moved we all have been having a heck of a time with colds or other ailments. I had bronchitis, then the flu, then a severe sinus infection ( in which now I need to get surgery since they did a cat scan and said I have poor drainage) and the MOST SEVERE tooth ache I have ever had in my 28 years of life. The roof of my mouth swelled ... I had to got an oral surgeon. Then finally after the infection went away a root canal.....I was never so happy to see my dentist. I wanted it to go away...now!
Our little guy had to get his 2 front teeth pulled & the one beside those 2 capped. The doctor believes its from his mom having been taking a antibiotic or maybe see did not get the vitamins and appropriate nutrition. Also I am sure the bottle addiction did not help... the baby bottle that is. But truthfully I do not care why it had to be done.... it was the worst~ to see them give him a shot & him stare up at me with his eyes rolling back saying MOMMY...MOMMY~ it broke my heart I would have dealt with my tooth ache and all for a month for him not to be put through that. They took him back and I just made it to the hall and busted into tears. About 1 hour later they brought him out... by the time we got home he was already saying I want some... that means FEED ME..... try telling a 2 year old NO... you can not have food for and hour...
Michael to has had his fair share of colds. And really his battle has been the snow & driving 45mins to work & back. But hes a trooper.

SNOW... what can I say we have had a crap load of snow.... enough to last me a life time. Beautiful but the temp's have been very low. Making it impossible to do or go anywhere. Finally the other day we got a semi nice day in the lows 50's which was nice but it also melted the snow that hid all the doggy Poo.... I picked up a half of a white kitchen bag full of it.... I love my dog but seeing that makes me think.... WHY did I want a dog. Yuck! But I LOVE my pooch.
He was my first baby you know.

Work has been insane...Little ups lots of downs. New boss for our office changed our production requirements which made it impossible to hit our numbers. I do alot of High dollar claims & have been at my job going on 9 years next Nov. 6th so I get a lot of questions and do reporting & stuff like that. I like my job since I am home. But some times the stress is not to be desired. I love the people I work with. And I get along really well with my supervisor. But the work load can be intense. But as I do say to anyone that is employed ..... isn't the work load always intense. Any way that enough about that~

I have been also working on putting together Jacobs BIG BOY room. Sports theme..... I hung a few things he received from his god mother Gemma. God we miss her so much. I feel sometimes that she is still here watching over Jacob. A guardian angel. Its finally really coming together... I will have to post some pictures.

Also we filled out all the foster to adopt papers & are awaiting clearances. We met on a Wednesday and the following Wednesday got a call about a little boy who was going to be 3 in Feb. Then the pulled the rug out from under us without even telling us. The foster mom decided to stay with the agency. And even with him being up soon for adoption they left him with her. But she is not wanting to adopt. Strange! Anyway we are on the path to hopefully be a mom & dad to another little girl or guy. Keep your fingers crossed...

Time to go..... tired & well I got to save some stuff for another day.

Missed all you guys....

Our New Home....

After living 3 weeks seperate with our families. We are finally in our

house. I am so happy to finally be back to being my Husband. And Jacob to be with his daddy. It was a very hard 4 weeks. Friday I went to the doctor to find out I have bronchitis, then we moved saturday & our moving truck we packed and strapped all our stuff in broke down, Sunday I had the flu.... Projectile vomiting and all that stuff. Horrible!!! I am still fighting the bronchitis bug. So unpacking is slow.

Well I wanted to update with some pic's... they are from when the previous owners owned it...thats not our furniture. We have a lot more crap!

well I got to go my little guy is ready for turkey.

Happy Thanksgiving!

5 DAYS... And counting

Only 5 days till we move into our new house. We are SO ready to start our life in our new home. Our closing is on Thursday. And Friday morning the previous owners moving trucks pull out & I pull in to meet with the cable Internet company for my work computer. ( I work from home...only go to office 2 days out of the month) Not bragging. That's just how important it is for me to be set up come the following Monday.
So since I have been at my moms I have been working like a wild woman 40hrs reg. & OT. I need the money plus a few odd jobs on the side. Cleaning my sister in laws house.... etc.
Today we got our first snow.. everything is covered in snow. Beautiful but COLD. I do not care for cold weather. Jacob & I are getting some major colds. And Michael is in the middle of having his. Things are not to bad a my parents house. Getting use to their heating is hard. They have a oil/ wood burning furnace. And with cost of oil & all my dad has really been sticking to wood. Last night I slept with no blankets... I was roasting! It was like the middle of the hottest summer day. All I needed was a pool & a drink with an umbrella. ( just joking... not much of a drinker)
Well I better go... we still have not got our computer back. So far they have found over 150 virus on it.... crazy I tell you

Sick & Tired

Still living at our parents house.... Its been rough! I greatly appreciate them taking us in but its hard because Jacob is so off schedule. And has no structure to his days.
I thought a perk to living with my family maybe I could sleep in on Saturdays. Yeah right! Either for some odd reason my body tells me its time to get up & I look at the clock its 7:30 or 8am or some little man comes & jumps on me and says MOMMY.... Mommy!! I am up...

So Thursday I developed a cold. So not only am I tire... I am sick! Blowing my poor red nose, watery eyes, and clogged nose. I am going insane. I hate being sick. Wake up 3 times a night can't breath. Sore throat from catching flies since I can't breathe through my nose. Then my little man wants to give me a kiss & he can not. Germs!

Anyway I better go.... Suppose to be visiting my husband. Hes watching the game... Me to but took a break.

Quick Update & HOPE for a Change

Well things are insane right now. Michael & I are living at our parents house. He is at his moms & me at mine. Long story short.... we can not move in for 3 weeks to the new house. He is allergic to cats and his uncle is not fond of the idea of children or animals.... So Jacob, Simon ( the dog) & I are at my moms. Its whats best for Jacob.

But its hard. Going through the emotions of the loss of our niece & being separated. And Michael is going insane with out Jacob and Me. And I to am lost with out him. But we are lucky to being moving into such a beautiful ( our old house was beautiful to) & are thankful.

Leaving our old house was hard .... it was the last place we saw Gemma & my brother in law Gary. And all the adoption memories.... filing papers, bring him home, and watching him grow there.

So how about that ....... We won!! Voting was insane here in PA......
Obama won.
Both candidates were very good men...but in the end Obama just was the better man.
I truthfully do not talk to anyone about politics.... but am very happy that we finally have a chance for a change. I hope we get it!

I think for most Americans he is a symbol of HOPE.

In Memory of ..... Gemma Glass 10/25/2008

This is a blog no family should have to write.
Our 20 year old niece Gemma passed this weekend. I believe I have mentioned somewhat about her health in some of my post. I tried to keep private since she is a private person. Since age 18 she has been fighting ovarian cancer. She had went through chemo & surgery to remove here ovary and was doing very well. But unfortunately this April at one of her check ups she was re diagnosed. She was treated with extreme amounts of chemo but the cancer continued to grow.
After looking for all attempts to find treatment or a cure her body gave out. It was sudden & unexpected. She had just join us in celebrating Jacobs birthday. And she looked beautiful..... She had so much color to her face and was smiling ear to ear. It may have something to do with going to see her boyfriend in Alabamba for the week. Love... what a splendid thing. She returned home and quickly went down hill. And this weekend peacefully went in her sleep.
We are heartbroken that god had chose this as her time. But are comforted to know she is no longer in pain & know her father was there to guide her.

No words can express what a great girl she was. She was shy, funny, intelligent, unique, Beautiful (even with no hair) and meant a lot to everyone around her. Jacob may not get to know her personally but he will be told stories of her & her kindness. She has become a guardian angel to watch over Jacob.

Gemma we will always love you & miss you...... And will keep in our thoughts & our hearts.

Her mother & sister have been through some much with the loss of their husband/ father & now her daughter/ sister. I hope They know we are all here for Them...

Busy!

Time...
Right now I have none!
I am either working, packing, playing, cleaning, launry, More packing, going back n fourth with realtor & seller,our buyer or mortgage company with paper work. Its insane!!!

So some our family membrs have done what I like to call the drive by... to see our new house and really like it. I also have heard that a few frinds/ family do not understand why we eed such a BIG house. Its really no that big... 2200 sq feet. I hate tripping over one another and I like having space..... My house now is 1600 sq feet. So really it not much larger just the rooms are bigger. And our house now is 48 years old and this or new home is 5 years old. Also I have a husband who can not fix anything!!! Nor build the simplest thing from a box...Like my desk... I did it! He held the parts. But his family always called people to fix things. My family never had the money to so we did it or paid a family friend. So its understandable why he does not know anything about the tools. Love you honey!

anyway really I do not care what people think. I love the house and we want to expand our famiy some how and its where we wanted to be.


Can you believe Jacob will be 2 this sunday. Time is flying by...
His birthday theme is Thomas the Train / Bob the Builder
Its exciti ... he will be able to open presents himself this year.

Better go breaks over

I hve to tell you this its funny...
last night mom calledanted to talk to Jacob. He was waching thomas. I handed him the phone and he says I'm busy and handed it back.... I was so funny we had a good laugh

I'm Still Here

Hello! I hope everyone is doing well. I have missed you guys ..... I still having computer issues. But should be fixed come Thursday.
BIG NEWS......
DRUM ROLL PLEASE....................

We got a house..... No longer homeless!

Well OK for 3 weeks we will be.
We need to be out of our house the October 31 and we get into our new house Nov 21. So I am going to live with my parents & Michael with his mom on the couch... I know your thinking HUH?
Well his uncle.... His
moms brother lives with her and well is Little bit of a stick in the mud... He does not like dogs or kids. And I well that's not a healthy environment for Jacob to be in. And my parents have a cat & Michael is SEVERELY allergic.....So He is going to work his norm 9-9:00. Come to the house tuck Jacob in. See me... the go home to bed.And weekends we will spend together. Its 3weeks...... We have to deal. there are no monthly rentals in our area. Especially w/ winter coming. It will be hard but in the end its worth it!

So other than that work & looking at house has been my life. Now its packing and playing with Jacob.

But I better go! I will post later.



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System Problems & internet/ TV Outage

Well...... my computer is experiencing some technical difficulties... I have no idea what possible virus or something. So blogging will be limited till fixed. Then on top of that PA got hit by the remnants or Hurricane Ike. Last night we got slammed with 79mph winds. Thank god we have electric. But cable TV Internet is not working.
I may be going to the office tomorrow. It literately looked like a tornado went through. I have pictures BUT can not down load them her... at my sister in laws unloading my parent frozen goods since they may be out of electric for a few days... Yes a FEW DAYS!!!

Anyway I got to go....
Oh Jacob got allergy testing he is not allergic to anything. They said he has a idiopathic allergy large term for unknown allergy....
OK enough must go... my nieces & nephew all 3 of them are terrorizing me.... so if anything is spelled wrong they are covering the screen , pulling the keyboard.
2 seconds form Aunt Ann finding a corner & sitting them all in it...Yeah good luck ones hard enough to get there....Ha ha ha

Prayer Greedy.....

Did you ever have a moment in life where all you feel like you do at night is pray to god for something. Well that's me! I lay at night thinking & praying that god will help our niece to fight her cancer. Then I pray for our family (Michael, Jacob, Simon, & I) to find a new house. Then it was the fundraiser .... Please let us make some money for my niece & her family. I feel like all I do is constantly pray or ask god for something. I feel Prayer greedy. Does anyone else ever feel this way? Or am I just insane!

My Emotional Rollercoaster

Searching for our next place to call home has been a up & DOWN roller coaster. We found this house pretty quickly after a long search for sale by owner..... We placed a bid they agreed. We were waiting forms but then another person bid. We counter offered again they said on that Wednesday to give them till Monday ( we were on vacation & could not sign papers). Anyway Monday comes and a voice mail they decided not to sell at all. So I went through the tears & all that on vacation. Well today after our buyers 5 hours inspection of our house and the emotions of waiting to hear what they had to say... we get a call they are selling it and are willing to take our bid still. I was so excited.... More than I can express.... they said papers would be here tonight. I waited & waited nothing. Then to get an email someone who heard from the grape vine they were selling it again ( no sign up. or in paper nothing) ...happened to call & will pay cash... what a load of bullS***. I really hate people like this I know we must all look out for our families. But there is a thing called respect...next time call everyone let them know & do not except offer till final person called.. So here i sit in tears... Yes I know its just a house but.... its where I imagined raising my son for the last 5 hours... and last week for DAYS!!!
Michael called them which he never does stuff like that & thank him for turning our life upside down the past 2 weeks. And hope that he got what he wanted & that it does not fall part.. cause we will not be here waiting.

I guess I was raised better... Why is it that nice people get crapped on all the time?
should I be a mean, rude, disrespectful person? Is that what it takes to get some where in this world? Cause I seem to get taken advantage of a lot... for being nice.

Well to bed I go...
I have had enough for today!

thanks for listening to me vent...... and being my shoulder to cry on. My poor husband has to truly deal with me now.

More Pic from Vacation... Nags Head NC

Here are some more pics.
While over there we took a drive & took are car over on a ferry to Ocracoke Island. It was really neat never been on a ferry before. We wanted to take my car 4 wheeling on the beach but my mother in law & sister law were a little moody with one another & ended that whole plan. And our long drive & ferry ride was a loss.
Next pic... Jacob Loves Lemons & I happen to capture his first nibble... sour face!! then him just hanging out drinking( yes a bottle... get off my back I hear it enough from others... he is just not ready. I have TRIED & TRIED!!!)
Then the group of us went go kart riding...even Jacob(double car with this dad) and this is our pic after... ( I am taking the pic) So I was driving slow so I could be with my men and they come up wave & floor it.. Rudeness!
Then our beautiful niece Gemma!! Smiling which was nice to see.

Vietnam Adoption

I am sad to hear, say, think...etc that today Vietnam will no longer give referrals to families who are waiting. My heart really goes out to them. Our son has been my everything. And with out Vietnam as one our options we may not have been able to adopt. We to have thought of extending our family again through adoption and Vietnam but when the whispers started being passed around we were worried. So again to those families..you are in our prayers.
Everyone always told me god has a plan & there is a reason ... and I never really understood why until I saw Jacobs face.
Now I can not say I 100% fully agree... I still struggle...
Why would God give an 18yr old young woman ovarian cancer, then take her father(he passed), then have her cancer come back.
So should I really give that advice... I am not sure. There is no real words or advice that can comfort in any feeling of loss... and losing an opportunity to adopt from Vietnam is a loss. The country, people, culture and the beautiful children who await families is a loss. But I believe the program will be back & hopefully soon.

Good night all!!