Merry Christmas & In Memory of Donna

I just wanted to take a moment to say Merry Christmas. I am sorry I have not wrote much lately. I have not had much free time between work, Jacob, my parents, helping take care of my sister in law, and keeping everything else a float. Just been so busy~

This past week has been a hard one with the holiday, double b-day party at my house for my neices & their friends..... And I am very sad to say my sister law (mentioned above) has passed. It was so unexpected. I know if she were reading this she would be sad that I am sad. She always sad not to be sad she was going though so much~ But I really got close to her the last yr or so & I hate not having her here. I miss talking to her & hearing her advice & words of wisdom.
Some times when I was having a bad day for what ever reason...work, life, etc....
She was the one to talk to ....... She is something special~ And now she watches over us keeping us safe. We could not ask for a better gaurdian angel. We all Love you & miss you Donna~

Jacob was some what asleep & awake the other night & was screaming her name. I grabbed him and got him up & he asked me where Donna was. I said in heaven with the angels... And that she was fine... He really got close to her too~ Loss is so hard to explain to someone who has no idea what it is. But in a way I think he does (in his own little way.)
I asked him if he was dreaming the next day in the tub..... He said she said I can play with her race cars ... And she loves me~ I could have cried~
She collected a few nascar model cars. Expensive ones!

Well I got to get to bed everything has drained me this week.... Especially the loss of a Sister