I'm Still Here

Hello! I hope everyone is doing well. I have missed you guys ..... I still having computer issues. But should be fixed come Thursday.
BIG NEWS......
DRUM ROLL PLEASE....................

We got a house..... No longer homeless!

Well OK for 3 weeks we will be.
We need to be out of our house the October 31 and we get into our new house Nov 21. So I am going to live with my parents & Michael with his mom on the couch... I know your thinking HUH?
Well his uncle.... His
moms brother lives with her and well is Little bit of a stick in the mud... He does not like dogs or kids. And I well that's not a healthy environment for Jacob to be in. And my parents have a cat & Michael is SEVERELY allergic.....So He is going to work his norm 9-9:00. Come to the house tuck Jacob in. See me... the go home to bed.And weekends we will spend together. Its 3weeks...... We have to deal. there are no monthly rentals in our area. Especially w/ winter coming. It will be hard but in the end its worth it!

So other than that work & looking at house has been my life. Now its packing and playing with Jacob.

But I better go! I will post later.



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System Problems & internet/ TV Outage

Well...... my computer is experiencing some technical difficulties... I have no idea what possible virus or something. So blogging will be limited till fixed. Then on top of that PA got hit by the remnants or Hurricane Ike. Last night we got slammed with 79mph winds. Thank god we have electric. But cable TV Internet is not working.
I may be going to the office tomorrow. It literately looked like a tornado went through. I have pictures BUT can not down load them her... at my sister in laws unloading my parent frozen goods since they may be out of electric for a few days... Yes a FEW DAYS!!!

Anyway I got to go....
Oh Jacob got allergy testing he is not allergic to anything. They said he has a idiopathic allergy large term for unknown allergy....
OK enough must go... my nieces & nephew all 3 of them are terrorizing me.... so if anything is spelled wrong they are covering the screen , pulling the keyboard.
2 seconds form Aunt Ann finding a corner & sitting them all in it...Yeah good luck ones hard enough to get there....Ha ha ha

Prayer Greedy.....

Did you ever have a moment in life where all you feel like you do at night is pray to god for something. Well that's me! I lay at night thinking & praying that god will help our niece to fight her cancer. Then I pray for our family (Michael, Jacob, Simon, & I) to find a new house. Then it was the fundraiser .... Please let us make some money for my niece & her family. I feel like all I do is constantly pray or ask god for something. I feel Prayer greedy. Does anyone else ever feel this way? Or am I just insane!

My Emotional Rollercoaster

Searching for our next place to call home has been a up & DOWN roller coaster. We found this house pretty quickly after a long search for sale by owner..... We placed a bid they agreed. We were waiting forms but then another person bid. We counter offered again they said on that Wednesday to give them till Monday ( we were on vacation & could not sign papers). Anyway Monday comes and a voice mail they decided not to sell at all. So I went through the tears & all that on vacation. Well today after our buyers 5 hours inspection of our house and the emotions of waiting to hear what they had to say... we get a call they are selling it and are willing to take our bid still. I was so excited.... More than I can express.... they said papers would be here tonight. I waited & waited nothing. Then to get an email someone who heard from the grape vine they were selling it again ( no sign up. or in paper nothing) ...happened to call & will pay cash... what a load of bullS***. I really hate people like this I know we must all look out for our families. But there is a thing called respect...next time call everyone let them know & do not except offer till final person called.. So here i sit in tears... Yes I know its just a house but.... its where I imagined raising my son for the last 5 hours... and last week for DAYS!!!
Michael called them which he never does stuff like that & thank him for turning our life upside down the past 2 weeks. And hope that he got what he wanted & that it does not fall part.. cause we will not be here waiting.

I guess I was raised better... Why is it that nice people get crapped on all the time?
should I be a mean, rude, disrespectful person? Is that what it takes to get some where in this world? Cause I seem to get taken advantage of a lot... for being nice.

Well to bed I go...
I have had enough for today!

thanks for listening to me vent...... and being my shoulder to cry on. My poor husband has to truly deal with me now.

More Pic from Vacation... Nags Head NC

Here are some more pics.
While over there we took a drive & took are car over on a ferry to Ocracoke Island. It was really neat never been on a ferry before. We wanted to take my car 4 wheeling on the beach but my mother in law & sister law were a little moody with one another & ended that whole plan. And our long drive & ferry ride was a loss.
Next pic... Jacob Loves Lemons & I happen to capture his first nibble... sour face!! then him just hanging out drinking( yes a bottle... get off my back I hear it enough from others... he is just not ready. I have TRIED & TRIED!!!)
Then the group of us went go kart riding...even Jacob(double car with this dad) and this is our pic after... ( I am taking the pic) So I was driving slow so I could be with my men and they come up wave & floor it.. Rudeness!
Then our beautiful niece Gemma!! Smiling which was nice to see.

Vietnam Adoption

I am sad to hear, say, think...etc that today Vietnam will no longer give referrals to families who are waiting. My heart really goes out to them. Our son has been my everything. And with out Vietnam as one our options we may not have been able to adopt. We to have thought of extending our family again through adoption and Vietnam but when the whispers started being passed around we were worried. So again to those families..you are in our prayers.
Everyone always told me god has a plan & there is a reason ... and I never really understood why until I saw Jacobs face.
Now I can not say I 100% fully agree... I still struggle...
Why would God give an 18yr old young woman ovarian cancer, then take her father(he passed), then have her cancer come back.
So should I really give that advice... I am not sure. There is no real words or advice that can comfort in any feeling of loss... and losing an opportunity to adopt from Vietnam is a loss. The country, people, culture and the beautiful children who await families is a loss. But I believe the program will be back & hopefully soon.

Good night all!!